re-cap

the pic is not me btw
Friday: .....SLEEP * Coffee followed by school. Sam came home w/me after school. Tom came later. FRANTIC CALLING trying to figure out what the hell is going on!!! Joe shows up finally and we go bowling. Kayla. Dropped off people and went home. SLEEP.....

Saturday: .....SLEEP * House work. Club social thing. Food. SLEEP.....

Sunday: .....SLEEP * Church. Sick. sick. sick. sick. sick. sick. sick. sick. SLEEP.....

Monday: .....SLEEP * .....SLEEP * .....SLEEP. * TV. SLEEP..... * Food. SLEEP.....

Tuesday: " repeat Monday"

Wednesday: .....SLEEP * Coffee. School. Tired. phone. comp. HW. Blog.....

Been A While

"It's Been A While"

And it's been awhile

Since I could hold my head up high

And it's been awhile

Since I first saw you

And it's been awhile

Since I could stand on my own two feet again

And it's been awhile

Since I could call you

And everything I can't remember

As fucked up as it all may seem

The consequences that I've rendered

I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile

Since I can say that I wasn't addicted

And it's been awhileSince I can say I love myself as well

And it's been awhile

Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do

And it's been awhile

But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember

As fucked up as it all may seem

The consequences that I've rendered

I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?

Just make this go away

Just one more peaceful day!

And it's been awhile

Since I could look at myself straight

And it's been awhile

Since I said I'm sorry

And it's been awhile

Since I've seen the way the candles light your face

And it's been awhile

But I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember

As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me

I cannot blame this on my father

He did the best he could for me

And it's been awhile

Since I could hold my head up high

And it's been awhile

Since I said I'm sorry

STAIND

Yeah, everyone knows this song, but it's prettymuch awesome.

boring time

So i'm compleatly ready to go.....but school doesn't start for another hour.......oh well, i'll just soak in the little time that i wont be with Tom n Sam today. So i'm gunna leave for school in about umm........idk 40 min. Then we'll do the whole Friday drill. What fun.....YAY! i was just handed COFEE!!!! but yeah, as I was saying....From school Sam is coming home w/me, that's at 3, then after Tom is done getting shoes he'll come over about 4:30 or something, more or less. Then Joe's gunna pick us up around 6......then football....in the rain most likely. Then bowling, With Kayla! And i gotta go now. SO0o0O yeah

NEW AMP!!!!!

So just ask anyone who's talked to me today or last night. I GOT A NEW AMP!!!!! ahhhh
yeah, it's the one in the pic. prettymuch compleatly utterly awesome!!!!! ahhhh, i'm having a good day. 5 hours one the shread so far!!!!

Your face

Ever since I last saw your face

All I could think of was you

Now that I'm Alone

I find myself in thought

of what might just be

the perfect chance to soar

or to become infatuated again

you make me smile

I wish i knew what you were doing now

are you thinking of me?

I can feel your touch

from miles away

i can see your face

in my dreams

because ILoveYou

And i need you

forever more lost in eternity

and gone from this earth

to our own world

my mind is wandering

but just closer to you

my eyes fall shut but not to sleep

and i drop then pen in utter tired

yet I will not sleep

^- I feel asleep right after i wrote that line, haha

6F.G.A./I.W.E.Y.P.= '6Flags Great America/'I Will Eat Your Pantaloons'

SOOOOO i just got back from G.A. JAKE <-- happy person!!!!
So i got up at %*@/ing 5:30am, went to Micky D's, waited forever, i finally get picked up, 4hour drive or something like that, stopping at Micky D's along the way. we get there, eat at Micky D's again. i got more gum. Bought a superman shirt! got ditched then spent the rest of the day with Cliff and his chieka'. Yeah, she's prettymuch cool, n he's my homeboya from tha Silver Cliffs of North Weh yo'
Sooooo I'm happy, cause Kayla is coming tomorrow, happy, happy, happy, day

yuuuuup

Soo, today i've been working with my dad to make a school ID, he's the headperson or whatever of the school, well we were doing it to that i could go to 6flags, i need picture ID. So now i'm just waiting cause i have to get up at 5:30am so i can be at Micky D's at 6, wow, i'm cool, i can get up early.
Soooooo the next day, sunday=fun day, yuuup. ILoveMyKayla*EndOfStory

Ordinary

Today is the 13th, just an ordinary day, with ordinary people, and ordinary classes. One thing that wasn't ordinary was me, and that's pretty ordinary though........yup, ordinary

Day....

Blog time again, what fun..... Yeah, today's been weird but okay. Not so much the weird as the okay, if that makes sense. I've even further embraced my love for the ever fulfilling and sustaining substance referred to by most as coffee' yea, its just about the best thing on this whole planet.
Hmm i has a good Sunday, and my Monday was..........well a Monday. But today I had a.....strange and hard to explain day. Feelings and thoughts came back again. So i guess it's been a happy, sad, confused, carbuncled, and blubified, day. And i know that that made no sense, on that note I'll end this edition of.....nothing

911

September 11, 2001

a day most of us will never forget, a day we should all remember forever.

Just have to mention all those who died today five years ago, we will never forget.

Today and Tomorrow

So today was alright. Things are great with Kayla as far as I know. I just gotta see her soon though. Like right now. I guess I'm going to Great America on Sat. That should be fun, and I'm buying a superman shirt, because me n Kayla are just that cool. Hmm...maybe I'll get my ears pierced and get superman earrings too.....hmm......haha.
I dont know if i wanna go to Great America though really, i mean i wanna go, but that would mean i would only be able to do something with Kayla on sunday after she gets off work at four, which means idk if people can do something that night cause of school....but we'll see, yup. I love her, no doubt in my mind.

"Let It Die

"Let It Die"

We had fire in our eyes

In the beginning I

Never felt so alive

In the beginning you

You blame me but

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't want to hear it anymore

I swear I never meant to let it die

I just don't care about you anymore

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't care about you anymore

We had time on our side

In the beginning we

We had nothing to hide

In the beginning you

You blame me but

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't want to hear it anymore

I swear I never meant to let it die

I just don't care about you anymore

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't care about you anymore

You say that I didn't try

You say that I didn't try

You say that I didn't try

I swear I never meant to let it die

I just don't care about you anymore

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't care about you anymore

I just don't care about you anymore

I just don't care about you anymore

I just don't care about you anymore

I just don't care about you anymore

I think all ya'll know what that's about. even though i didnt write it (three days grace) it is prettymuch exactly taken out of my 'ead

yup

So i'm prettymuch hating life and all, nothin much. Kayla's doubting us, that's always nice.

Taking Back My Life

Today I've realized that my life, for the most part, has been controlled by other people's views, interests, and ways of thinking. Today I'm taking back my life by forgetting about what other people think and just be myself. Now I'm not saying i never act myself, just that in general my way of thinking and acting around most groups of people is effected by those people. I don't know if that's really all that bad sometimes, but i don't think that it should always be the case.
The point of this blog is, i hope, to show you who i am. I hope to do some real posting this time, unlike my last blog. So keep up if you want. Don't if you don't.