Facts

-It is estimated that 15% or roughly 17 million Americans suffer from depression.

-It affects rich and poor, young and old, black and white.

-2/3 are never treated.

-They do not recognize the illness, and see it as a weakness or personality flaw.

-Untreated depression is the most common cause of suicide.

-In Australia, New Zealand and Japan, there are more suicides than murders.

-Suicide is the third leading cause of death among young people.

-Depression is treatable.

-Cutting was very much a mystery until 1996 when Princess Diana admitted that she had struggled with it.

-Cutters use physical pain as an attempt to calm or numb the psychological pain.

-They cut the outside in an attempt release the pain on the inside.

-Cutting is an attempt to stop the hurting, an attempt to be clean.

-Cutters and addicts seek the familiar, even if it's pain.

-This is completely foreign to most of us.

-Cutters believe pain is their only option, using greater pain as relief from the pain inside.

-There is hope.

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Hmm....homework.....to go to party, or not to go to party? foooood..........Eddie Looney? what's that?........pie.......KAYLA ILoveHer..........school.... =(.............pie....=)...........

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So it's been afew days since my last post. On Friday i went to the morge in Freedom with Kayla, Tom, Maxx, Kaleb, and a bunch of Kayla's friends afew of them i've met before, but yeah, that went really well. Except i lost one of my rings, and Maxx lost his lip ring....yup, good stuff.
I think i'm alot better than i have been as far as being depressed, i'm looking forward and keeping my chin up, so i hope i dont seem as weird or whatever, but yeah. School's really the only thing that's keeping me down, i hate it with a burning passion. And i gotta go do more homework since i'm about a week behind on EVERYTHING! so i'll talk to ya'll later.

betttttterrrrrrr

so i'm seing kayla in almost 2 hours or something! ahhh i'm HAPPY!!!!!!

So it's been a week and a day since my last post, alot happens in a week and a day, or in this case a week and a half. but anyway. Last sunday i was depressed....majorly, yeah, idk why, idk how, but i was. So i decided to get wasted for whatever reson, dont ask cause i frankly dont know. But yeah, there was a whole ordeal with my parents, the next day they took me to a shrink. Yeah, i left some stuff out but that doesnt matter. I just thought i'd get that out in the open cause i dont care who knows. So now my parents dont trust me and they're worried, my friends all have their own problems, and i'm stuck helping them the best i can, i do like helping them though, it gives me reson. I love my friends, they're what keep me going, but at they same time they're what pulls me down. Most people probably wouldn't care about all this anyway, but it's my life, and my blog. And i get mad to easaly. I actualy made a list for Rach today of the things that were bothering me it was 2 full pages long. And yeah, she asked me to otherwise i wouldnt have done it, but w/e. Wait, i was suppost to make one of those for tom...hell, i'll do it now, he reads this.

these arn't in any order

-Drama
-school
-Miss Aerts' justice which i really do deserve but i'm fucking sick of
-Mrs. Nimmer, idk, she's out to make everything perfect, i hate perfect.
-Myself, i hate myslef cause i cant figure anything out and i procrastinate about everything.
-Everybody getting on me about Rachel, JUST FRIENDS! end of story, now SHUT UP!
-Sam cheeting on Britt and her not caring cause she's too crazy about him to break up.
-Somethings wrong with Kayla and she wont tell me...she can always talk to me no matter what.
-my parents dont trust me....my fault......
-I cant seem to find time to do ANYTHING important.
-I procrastinate on EVERYTHING especialy homework.
-cold pizza........
-I need a job
-I cant seem to find time to get a job, even though i don't even try....
-Rach and her dad getting laid off...and she might move.
-If Kayla moves in with her dad and he moves, ill probably die cause it's over an hour away now.
-no one will care about this list by the time they get this far.
-I could keep going but i dont want to cause no one cares.
-yeah that's about it, sorry for your time.....

yeah

Yeah, i'm back or whatever. I never really left, But yeah. So today Kayla called and said she, Kayla, was coming over, yup. Kayla just told me like it was fact, I didn't beleave Kayla, so Kayla showed up at my door, then Kayla gave my mom flowers, THEN Kayla and I looked through Kayla's new photo book thing, i gave Kayla her present, and POOF! Kayla was gone, it was prettymuch awesome, lol. Kayla, your going doing that more often, cause it makes me happy, kaay? yup, you are Kayla!
ANNNNND i'm going to the game friday, going to see Kayla! ILoveKayla<3, good week, yup. well...good last half of week, haha. So i'm in a happy mood, thanks to who? Kayla of course!

so i probably wont be on for awile, just because, computers are mean, Yup. So i'll talk to you all later.

yet another weekend...

So this weekend was prettymuch not cool. Yeah, prettymuch what I've been talking about. Plus i didn't get to see Kayla....sadness. And everything all of the sudden seems useless when she's gone, u know? Maybe you don't, but anyway. Sam can be a big help, or a big ass, depends on his mood, right now. big ass, what's new? and i guess if you read this you care somewhat. right? maybe. well i know Kayla does, ILoveYouBabe. and Hannah says she cares, i believe her. Tom's always cared. idk who else reads this. so yeah, why am i telling you this? dk. I should probably go get the 2 hours of homework i have due for Monday done... yeah, i know, I'm a big ass procrastinator and proud of it, I'm also proud of my new Flyleaf band T, good stuff. so yeah....I guess I'll end on that note, be prepared for a 'bad day' post about Monday....

time to blog again

So the past couple days have prettymuch been hell on my mind. THINGS, scary sometimes how much can almost happen in a week. You can loose friends, you can gain them, you can comfort them, you can hate them. All this you can do, but at the end of the week, you try to forget all of that and start new. It gets repetitive, but I find its one of the only ways to stay sane. And get the shit knocked out of me playing football.
So I'll leave in a good mood, probably not gunna be that way tomorrow, but it's Kayla's birthday tomorrow, so I'll be happy for her =), Happy Birthday sweetie <3

tues..

Yeah, so today... anyone who saw me would know that i'm prettymuch almost giving up.....but yeah, today sucked, i'm sore all over, my nose is all bent to shit, and i have 5 hours of choir tonight. Joe, Alex, Johnny, and some other person showed up after school, that made me somewhat happy.


and i hope we're alright...

Brett was at school at lunch too, cool little fatty.
well my day wasnt allllll that bad,

i just hope we're alright...

yup

So i have no clue who actually reads this.....but whatever. Today all i really have to say is....don't expect me to do things just cause everyone is telling me to, seriously, lay off, kay? cause I'm already pissed off enough on a daily basis. So if you have a problem with something either deal with it yourself, or confront me. Don't just say things to other people and expect that it'll go through the grape vine n shit like that.