Back to real life

So I'm back to real life after 7 days of sailing the upper bay. I hate to remember all the friends i keep loosing contact with, and that the people I used to hold closest to my heart i barely talk to if at all. The school year is fast approaching on the 27Th. At NDA transfer students get paired up with someone so that they're not alone when they come in. Apparently Kayla knows the girl I'm paired up with. I got to know afew people at NDA through the Stubenville retreat, i hope that works out. Right now i barely even talk to the guys in the band anymore, let alone most of my friends. It's not intentional. I've just been working most days this summer and when I'm not working I'm gone somewhere. I was gone at Stubenville(which was amazing) and then this week sailing and next weekend I'm going to go visit Chelsea. She has her habit and new name now. I don't even know what it is yet...to tell you the truth I'm extremely nervous about it. I know it's horrible but i haven't been able to send her a letter. I mean emotionally. She's been gone for a full year now, and i haven't sent her one letter. I only talked to her when we visited once, and when she came here for a week, which seems so far and distant. She cant come home for 2 years still.
I'm hoping that this school year helps more than it hurts. God knows last year this time i was a complete and utter wreck. Maybe it'll be okay for once. I guess we'll see. I just want my friends back, and to do things regularly with them, and just be there for them. I feel like I've cut so many friendships short. I want to make things better. well i guess I'll go for now.